It was a nice night for me. I had a bit of a long drive to my seminary wives meeting (I live an hour to an hour and a half away). I had forgotten that a couple who had a special needs child would be on the speakers panel.
The other speakers spoke freely and easily, talking about date nights, walks, time to listen the members in the family, taking vacations to nourish their soul.
The special needs couple spoke rawly of barely getting enough sleep at night, 2-3 hours of uninterrupted sleep was a luxury. 3 am came around with needs for children 5 nights in a row. The stress showed through, the inability to speak easily and in a relaxed manner as the exhaustion and sorrow affected the emotional, mental and physical wellbeing of the couple.
How my heart ached for them. I saw so much of myself in them. I was in the same boat just less than a year ago. After 3 years of a constantly fussy child, numerous hospital trips and stays, the stress of a marriage trying to bear the weight of a special needs child.
I saw the breaking..... God has chosen to break me. And yet now, in His grace, He was rebuilding me. This dear couple was still in the middle of the breaking.
There is something about having walked through the valley of the shadow. How do you explain it to someone who has never been there. You just can't. You just pray that somehow the Lord will bring You through to the other side. He has (mostly) don't this for me. Now I pray for others.
Brokenness is not my favorite subject. I really have no desire to live there. And yet God has brought me through it many times. And God speaks much and often of brokenness. Pray for those who are being broken. Pray that God will bring them through it. It is a hurting world. Only God can truly redeem those broken times.
Must go to bed. Little one woke up crying, and my own special needs guy will probably be up at 3 as well.
God is good my friends. He is the hope for the broken world. I want to spend more time meditating on these. May they comfort our hearts. His Word brings such hope and healing.
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