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Saturday, October 27, 2012

Seasons


There are many new seasons in life, and we as a family are entering another one.  It is a good season, but it is scary and challenging.

My husband has been in part time ministry for 7 years.  We are very, very grateful for what the Lord has allowed us to be part of, but lately we are realizing that the Lord is moving us on, and perhaps at this time, not into another ministry, but into really being able to just have time to rest, be refreshed, and be nourished in our relationship with the Lord and others.

The other part of the season we are entering into is a different phase in our care for Josiah.  He recently received a g-tube as he wasn't able to eat without the help of it.  The constant care of him is challenging, and yet beautiful.  I have never in my life had to lay down myself so much.  Truly in the times when my ability to do the things that I desire (normal, simple things, like shower, do the dishes, clean the house etc) is reduced, I have realized how blessed I am to be able to serve my sweet little boy and my precious family.  I am grateful that the Lord has trusted me with this great responsibility.  I pray I can do my best for Him.  

Emotions can come, and being able to deal with those emotions, thoughts and feelings in a way that honors the Lord is a constant battle.  After all, isn't so much of our walk in this world a battle for our mind and our heart.  This is no different.

I am grateful, for I know the Lord has His hand upon us.  I can see Him working behind the scenes so powerfully, and I am so grateful.  Sometimes looking back I actually catch my breath and am amazed at His grace.

He has not promised us an easy life (I could tell stories that would definitely convince you of that), but to see His leading, is a precious, precious thing.  I have seen miracles and amazing "coincidences" that in no way could be a coincidence, showing how the Lord has His hand upon us in the hardest of times, and only allows so much refining in His fire without putting some grace there.  And the peace that He gives is truly not something I could drum up.  When I take my eyes off of Him, I am such a mess.

I have been feeling so blessed by how the Lord has been bringing His Word in just the right way and in the right time lately.

I was able to start a Bible Study in the book of I and II Peter, then Job next semester, as well as Ephesians and Colossians.  I have been absolutely longing to study the epistles and gospels, so what a blessing this is.


Just tonight in family devotions these precious verses stuck out and ministered so much to me.

Romans 8
35 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?  37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Isn't He so good.  He is so faithful.  Nothing can seperate us from the love of God.... nothing.  

Not even your failures my friend....., that is what the cross of Christ is about.  We are all sinners saved by grace.  We don't have to be perfect..... we can be accepted for who we truly are.  And it is only in that amazing perfect acceptance that we will bloom.  That truly the joy and the peace and the love will well up deep from within our hearts, slowly manifesting itself in our outward expression.  But it will never come until we truly believe from the bottom of hearts that we are loved, truly and deeply loved, and accepted, the worst parts of us known, and still loved and forgiven, and embraced.  

Friends will fail us.  Family can hurt us.  But there is a true anchor for our souls.  A love that is deep, unchanging.  Lord, help me to truly walk in this love.  Help me to truly understand it.  Help me to really believe it and yes, even feel it.  May I walk in the confidence of Your love for me, and may my friends be able to do so as well.   

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